Health, Spirituality

I Don’t (Want to) Need You to Love Me Back

With quarantine going strong, I notice more and more people sharing how much they miss people, often expressing this to the people they miss. There is an exchange of affection expressed. It got me thinking again how I participate in this give and take of mutual reassurance. Am I merely expressing a kind of gratitude… Continue reading I Don’t (Want to) Need You to Love Me Back

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Tarot Introspections: Mother of Pentacles

Tarot is one of my abiding loves for introspective guidance. Not in a fortune telling sense but as a way to tease things out of my subconscious or unconscious mind. Shortly before my state went into lockdown, I found The Wild Unknown Tarot at Half Price Books on their 50% one item day, so for… Continue reading Tarot Introspections: Mother of Pentacles

Random Thoughts, Spirituality

Maybe This Is a Problem. Maybe It Isn’t.

Lately, I've been feeling sad a lot. It's not an overwhelming depression feeling. It's just grief. A sense of loss. No one has died, but things change a lot. Meditation and mindfulness practices make me more acutely aware of this. My study of Dharma tells me that this grief is a sign of attachment. It's… Continue reading Maybe This Is a Problem. Maybe It Isn’t.

Autobio, Psychology, Random Thoughts, Spirituality

Disappointment with Disappointment

Lately, I keep experiencing disappointment. Or, rather, I am paying attention to the fact that I experience disappointment. I think experiencing it is an ongoing thing for all of us. But it feels much better, safer, to keep on rolling along, letting distractions pull us away from the pain of disappointment. Yet, the pain is… Continue reading Disappointment with Disappointment

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We’re All in This Together

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The Bipolar Writer Mental Health Blog

I was inspired by a song today, and I thought it would be the perfect introduction to today’s post.

The Mental Illness Stigma – We’re All in This Together

simon-migaj-421505-unsplash.jpgOn the outside, you look normal–maybe even happy. You could also have a happy life full of people that love you, a job, a car, and a life that is decent to the outside world. None of that means that you are not fighting an invisible illness on the inside.

With mental illness for most the fight is in silence behind closed doors. It happens in your mind, and you fight a war. Battles are fought and lost, and most people have no idea. You’re different, and your brain just works differently–that makes you afraid. This is what I like to call the stigma.

Let’s face it. When we first learn that we have a mental illness, it is easier to believe…

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Autobio, Psychology, Spirituality

Self Love, Holiday Blues: Loneliness Edition

I have been feeling lonely lately, especially so after I interact with my friends. The breadth of space between humans is sometimes staggering, and it can be sad to see that the gulf can only be breached so far. We cannot ever really know another person. Most of us don't even fully know ourselves. There… Continue reading Self Love, Holiday Blues: Loneliness Edition

Autobio, Psychology, Spirituality, Uncategorized

Self Love, Holiday Blues

I've been in a funk lately, avoiding anything that makes me think too hard—like writing blog posts. In the past, I would've been beating myself up about this. Of course, those castigating thoughts are still there, but I continue my practice of being more gentle with myself. It took me some time to get to… Continue reading Self Love, Holiday Blues

books, Psychology

Book Review: The Premonition Code

I was asked to review a book called The Premonition Code, which is about precognition from a scientific and practical perspective, for the Public Parapsychology blog. Public Parapsychology is a website and blog dedicated to advancing public scholarship in the fields of parapsychology and anomalous psychology. *** The Premonition Code pairs a seasoned scientist, Dr.… Continue reading Book Review: The Premonition Code

Autobio, Psychology, Spirituality

Hope Must Die. I Will Kill It.

We all have shadow sides. Most people don't see these sides. A few, like maybe our coworkers or acquaintances, see snippets on our worst days. Even our friends may only catch glimpses. If we're really good at hiding it, even our close family rarely see it. A lot of us probably don't even see our… Continue reading Hope Must Die. I Will Kill It.

Autobio, Random Thoughts, Spirituality

Self-Reliance; No-Self–Reliance

Sometimes I get lost in "me." My financial difficulties, my mental problems, my physical pain and limitations. All I see are the obstacles that heighten my hardship. I become obsessed with all the systems that make my life more challenging and how all those systems need to change or just plain suck. I get lost… Continue reading Self-Reliance; No-Self–Reliance