Autobio, Pain, Spirituality

The Insidiousness of Hope

This week, I let myself hope that my extended time on muscle relaxers and additional back pain was coming to an end. I let myself hope that last week, too, and it didn't work out. But this week felt different. During the day on Monday I felt really good with only half a muscle relaxer… Continue reading The Insidiousness of Hope

Education, Health, Pain

Let’s Talk About Sex … and Chronic Back Pain

To my mother-in-law, who I know reads my blog, feel free to stop reading now. 😉 One of the least talked about (on the surface, although you can find stuff if you search for it) is how much of an impact chronic back pain has on your sex life. We all hear about how sex… Continue reading Let’s Talk About Sex … and Chronic Back Pain

Autobio, Health, Pain, Psychology, Spirituality

B is for Back Pain and Learning to Live with (and around) It #AtoZChallenge

I have had low- and mid-back issues since I was a teenager. Several years ago, a doctor helped me figure out that it all started when I was in a serious car accident when I was four. The accelerator in our car stuck. My mom was driving on a dirt road and drove into an… Continue reading B is for Back Pain and Learning to Live with (and around) It #AtoZChallenge

Health, Pain

Random Musings on Chronic Pain, Acute Flare-ups, and Quality of Life

It's been another rough week. When my stomach and back issues both flare at the same time, I have a lot of trouble dealing, which in turn flares my depression. This was the first time I've had serious suicidal thoughts in about six weeks. Today is a bit better of a day. I took some… Continue reading Random Musings on Chronic Pain, Acute Flare-ups, and Quality of Life

Health, Pain

“Toughing Out” Chronic Pain with a Side of Sarcasm

Chronic pain has been on my mind a lot lately because I've been doing a second gabapentin trial, which is going quite poorly. Waiting to hear back from the doctor on her thoughts on the side effects I'm getting. In the meantime, an article about chronic pain was shared by one of my friends on… Continue reading “Toughing Out” Chronic Pain with a Side of Sarcasm