This is not unique these days, but I feel like I've lost my ability to socialize. It was never my forte. I was sick a lot as a child, so I didn't learn to socialize as a young child and just had to wing it. I'm still winging it many years later after therapy, study,… Continue reading I’ve Lost My Ability to Socialize But Not Because of the Social Distancing Rules
Motivation, Distraction and Apathy
Here's the thing about depression and anxiety: sometimes you just can't seem to get anything done. Depression leaves you apathetic, although so can anxiety. Anxiety leads to distraction and difficulty concentrating. Depression drains motivation like a sieve until you're only left with the lump of your body stuck in bed or on the couch or… Continue reading Motivation, Distraction and Apathy
R is for Restlessness and Generalized Anxiety Disorder
People are scary. They are erratic, emotional beings. One never knows what one will get when interacting with people. While we're at it, the whole world is pretty scary too. Animals might attack. Plants can make you sick or even kill you. There are so many natural disasters that could significantly alter one's life. Heck,… Continue reading R is for Restlessness and Generalized Anxiety Disorder
The Day a Conference Broke Me
I went to an all-day conference yesterday. I was there about 9 hours. There was a long lunch break. I had time to walk around. The chairs in the rooms weren't the greatest, but I had my ergonomic kit designed to make it easier for me to sit without greatly aggravating my chronic pain condition.… Continue reading The Day a Conference Broke Me
What’s in a Name?
Like everything, there is a story behind the name Suicidal Tulip. First, the name Suicidal Flower was taken, but that's OK. That meant I had to pick a specific flower, and the tulip has always been one of my favorites. Second, yeah, I've been suicidal a number of times and suicidal ideation is my frequent… Continue reading What’s in a Name?