I have had low- and mid-back issues since I was a teenager. Several years ago, a doctor helped me figure out that it all started when I was in a serious car accident when I was four. The accelerator in our car stuck. My mom was driving on a dirt road and drove into an… Continue reading B is for Back Pain and Learning to Live with (and around) It #AtoZChallenge
Chronic pain has been on my mind a lot lately because I've been doing a second gabapentin trial, which is going quite poorly. Waiting to hear back from the doctor on her thoughts on the side effects I'm getting. In the meantime, an article about chronic pain was shared by one of my friends on… Continue reading “Toughing Out” Chronic Pain with a Side of Sarcasm
This isn't referring to marijuana. I'm talking about gabapentin again. After a few more days of merely 300 mg once a day, I became so stoned and tired I could barely function. Yesterday I was never awake more than a few hours at a time. I didn't take the medication last night and feel that… Continue reading Getting High
I went to an all-day conference yesterday. I was there about 9 hours. There was a long lunch break. I had time to walk around. The chairs in the rooms weren't the greatest, but I had my ergonomic kit designed to make it easier for me to sit without greatly aggravating my chronic pain condition.… Continue reading The Day a Conference Broke Me
Like everything, there is a story behind the name Suicidal Tulip. First, the name Suicidal Flower was taken, but that's OK. That meant I had to pick a specific flower, and the tulip has always been one of my favorites. Second, yeah, I've been suicidal a number of times and suicidal ideation is my frequent… Continue reading What’s in a Name?
Suicidal Tulip 